We Continue To Wish For It

we continue to wish for it
(poem / 2008)


You will save me from my lonely jealousy!

and then you'll start the sabotage.
You'll be viciously unpredictable.
We'll cry for each other, she and I, and you'll love it.
You'll bind us! and break us! and slice us! and shake us!
    and we will write songs about it
    and smile knowingly, like idiots.
And you'll arrange for me to forget to call - a lot - (you're a pretty stressful emotion)
    and it'll make her cry
Once you've pushed those words past my teeth
    (I'LL LOVE YOU UNTIL THE END OF TIME, BABY!)
        (And I'll never lie.)
            (or slip)

then you'll divide them and conquer me (you conquer all) (promises break easier alone)
and then, like a father teaching his child to swim in the town pool,
    you'll have already let go
        and left
            and now,
                in our fused two-ness,
                    i am so incredibly inextricably

                                                alone

                                                Save me again, love!